The Hair is No More
2013
It’s been about a month since I finished my whole brain radiation. My doctor said I’d start losing my hair around the two week mark. She was right. What she didn’t explain was the process. At first, my scalp starting itching like crazy. Imagine a mosquito bite that is all over your head. Yikes.
I thought my hair would come out in clumps and within a few days it would be over. I was wrong. More than two weeks after it started falling out, it was still falling out. It was a slow process.
Going into this and knowing that you are going to lose your hair is hard to swallow. I know it shouldn’t be, but it is. People who haven’t gone through this will say, “Patty, its only your hair”, and they are absolutely right. My head tells me that, but my heart isn’t listening. When you actually start losing your hair its quite emotional.
I would comb out handfuls of hair every day. Every day I’d wake up and see piles of hair on the floor. It was just a reminder that I have cancer. I don’t want to be reminded that I have cancer. I’m healed and trying to live my life with as much joy and energy as possible. This hair loss is a Debbie Downer and I just don’t have time for it.
So, today, I decided was the day. I called a friend of mine who lives basically down the street. She came right over in a matter of 2 minutes to help me. My hair is gone. I feel much better. No more emotional roller coaster. I will still need to get used to how I look, but I feel so much better not having hair falling out all over the place.
